You Do You

I recently had a talk with someone I respect immensely, who told me something I already knew to be true.  What was amazing about this conversation was how relatively quickly her insight led her to this conclusion.  

I lack a lot of self-confidence.  Because while on one level I know what I know backwards and forwards, I tend to really talk myself into a little ball of anxiety when it comes to articulating what I know.

I tend to remain quiet during group situations unless I really know the people I'm talking with and feel absolutely comfortable.  

Finally, I have recurring bouts of 'impostor syndrome', where the little voice of doom in my head tries to convince me that all these people really know that I have no idea what I'm doing, and that I'm going to be found out and embarrassed. 

I've tasked myself to work on this in 2016.  The bottom line is to gain a lot more self-confidence in who I am and what I'm doing.  Herein lies the problem.  There's no shortage of books that deal with this subject, and almost every single one of them sound like their own natural source of cheese.  So, I've ruled out the books; they're bad for my cholesterol. 

So, as near as I can figure, I'm on my own.  Then again, that may be the point.  

It occurs to me that this process to a more self-confident Roley may be worth documenting this year, if it will help any of you in a similar situation?  

 

Kris Roley

Virginia Beach, VA, 23453